Monster Ru

i'm not sleeping

(for those who are interested, there is a CC song by the same title :-) )

so i'm back in singapore, but some things don't change. i still can't bloody sleep properly. i tell people its a case of being jetlagged, but it is clearly not the case.

i thought i'd try to sleep tonight, following the advice of the lady at MR. after answering all of one phonecall all night, i proceeded to imbibe a huge amount of alcohol in a short period of time to try to knock myself out. its easy when there is something you are unhappy about. so i got home just past midnight, and went straight to bed. and what has to happen? i'm wide awake again just a couple of hours later. this fucking sucks.

read T's blog about the Philip Larkin poem - i guess i can emphatise with the "waking at 4" part... plus my head really hurts. so now i can't decide if i should just sit this one out or give it another chance by tossing and turning in bed again till sleep gets me.

posted by 儒 @ 19:53