Monster Ru

the other night i played pool with B and it was only at the 4th game we played that i beat him. (ok - 3rd game he put the cue ball down whilst he potted the black so it doesnt count.) and then he said it was a good shot but i didn't deserve to win. and the reason for that is that i seem like i don't care enough - if i win or not. its true - sometimes i don't care enough if i do or not. it gets tiring. and i'm lazy like that. but more so, i think that over the years, i have reduced the number of things that i actually care about, things that actually matter.

sometimes there is someone you really want to beat. sometimes it doesn't matter. its easier that way. less grief, less pain.

posted by 儒 @ 18:07