woe is me
i had a really nice long chat with my sister earlier this week. I'm getting quite stressed out about my parents coming over, and talking to her felt a lot more like how it used to be when we were younger. You know, more like Us vs. the Parents again, which was really comforting, although it didn't make me feel any more at ease. In fact, it confirmed (most of the) fears and anxieties that i have.Hell, i even thought about not telling them when the baby's born, and then letting them know after a month or so, just so that they won't rush straight over and watch my every step during the(ir) "confinement" month, telling me not to do this and that. You know, like cannot have baths, cannot touch water, cannot use scissors, cannot go out, etc. They are already doing it, over the phone. I mean, it's not like they are going to physically stop me doing these things, and you know that you are going to have to have showers, you are going to have to wash your hands, and you are going to step out of the house to get some fresh air. It's knowing how they will react that kills me. I know they mean well, but it's damn bloody annoying when you ask them for a reason for these things and they can't give you a logical answer. I'm really dreading the tension that will arise, and i really don't want their trip over here to be unpleasant. The scary thing is that there isn't really enough space in this apartment to "run away" from any sort of conflict.
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In other news, i was a bit shocked when my sister told me that the most expensive thing (the price!) she bought for this whole pregnancy/motherhood thing is a breast pump. So far, our most expensive purchase are the nappies we got yesterday. They're cute little organic re-usable ones. (Ok, we haven't got a pram/travel system thing, which is probably going to cost the most, but my mother-in-law is going to get that for us, which is cool.)
We're getting closer to the date now, and for the last couple of months, i've been feeling like i can't wait to get it out. You know, just 'cos of the physical discomfort and all. But my sister did say to me, "It's better in than out..."
We'll see.
Labels: family, pregnancy, woes
posted by 儒 @ 10:35
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